i think back to Your brief words as You stirred me from my sleep, telling me "it was time." i roll those few words through my head, streching them out and weighing their meaning. At some point, my thoughts take me so deep within my mind i fail to notice when the car has stopped until the door opens beside me and i feel the gust of wind kiss my skin. i shudder, renewed fear rolling under my flesh.
Your warm hands close on my arm - firmly but not to hurt - as you guide me from the car. my ears strain at each noise around me; crickets and frogs singing in their nocturnal rhythms. i walk hesitantly, a bit unsteady on heeled shoes and so lean into Your strength as we enter a building. i lose track of where we go, but You guide me effortlessly; familer and in charge. A shudder ripples through my body as the situation burns itself deeper into my brain.
Your hands leave me then, standing alone. For a moment, i panic and small, questioning whimpers bubble from my gagged mouth. i hear a strike and smell sulpher and realize a candle must have been lit. i know You've not left and as i realax a bit i continue to listen, hearing the reassuring sound of your steps on the floor.
It seems an eternity before You return to me, touching my bare arms behind my back so suddenly i jump. Your hands tighten to keep me from losing my balance, a deep but soft rumble of laughter spills across my skin. Again, you speak those words which began it all to me, as my heart pounds beneath my breast and things low in my body clench in responce, "it is time...."
~~~to be continued~~~
with baited breath and bended knee,
...I will take you to the darkest shadows of your desirethe place that you must be forced to go;the place your body refuses to go and breaks on the trip
-force you to that place-
...and make sure you know you went.the place where the only reason you take another breath,is if I decide that you will...where I hold your spirit so tight,to keep it from exploding from the pain
...then bring you back to see the look on your facewhen I tell you that I am going to take you there again...